Lessons From My Trauma - pt 6

What did After do?

After meant I wasn't

scared of Now.

After meant I knew

those were not last words,

and that maybe my trauma

could do something other than

hurt.

or, other than only hurt.

It still hurt.

But maybe not so much.

Because After wouldnt (likely)

be here without it.

Part of after started

to arrive, no enough

to be fully AFTER,

or even After.

But enough for a dance party,

smiles.

hugs.

Tears too.

But not the same tears as before.

Tears of complicated emotion.

Because Now had the smile

of a dance party, of better

memories, and the fact

that those weren't my last

words.

After gave me this Now.